I just had to dedicate a post to my favorite porn star Madison Young. She is amazing, beautiful in the natural way I love, submissive with intelligence, masochistic with spirit and simply so hot to watch.
I first saw her in an SAS show with Mark Davis. Amazing. However, I recently watched 3 episodes of her with her real life master and lover in The Training of O. It was so beautiful to see the mix of emotion and eroticism this brought for her. They had agreed to use the show to work out a service relationship. There was one moment that just showed so clearly what the whole power dynamic means to me. He has just used her hard, forced exercise, whippings, an ass fucking and she is standing at attention. He starts quizzing her.
Are you willing to suck cock anywhere any time?
>Yes sir.
Anyone's cock that I say?
>Yes sir.
Not just mine?
>Yes sir.
Are you willing to let go of me as a lover to be my servant?
>(long pause) Yes sir.
Then get down on your knees and present yourself like a servant.
>(obeys, as a few tears trickle down her face)
Why are you crying?
>At the thought of giving you up as a lover sir.
You know you can not be my servant every day in reality?
>Yes sir
You know that becoming a servant is an adjacency to our existing relationship?
>Yes sir
You know you are not losing me as a lover then?
You are gaining something you are not losing anything.
>Yes sir, thank you sir
Are you ok, do you wish to continue?
>Yes sir.
It reminds me of a conversation I had with my master this weekend.
Do you want me to be harder on you slave?
>(pause) Yes master.
Do you want to be treated like nothing, used like a hoar, like my property?
>Sometimes master.
Do you want to be my treasured beautiful slut?
>Sometimes master.
What do you want right now?
>To be nothing master.
And it was true, right then I wanted nothing more then to be on my knees at his feet, to suck his cock, to take his pain and humilarion and bring him pleasure. Afterwards he showered me, held me, kissed me and told me how much he loved me. I love that I can be everything and nothing to the same man. His lover and his slave. I need the separation to truly let go into slave mode. I could see how hard it was for Madison to imagine giving up the side of a lover and could see from his response how much he cared for her too and would never go that far.
My overpowering need for a sense of divide is the reason I do not consider myself 24/7. When I am in slave mode it is so strong and powerful to me that it would be impossible for me to have that on a continuous basis. However, I do not decide when I serve or where I serve. The power is in his hands continuously but I am only expected to access the submissive side at his wish. The collar signifies this for us. Everyone's definitions are different, but that is how it works best for us. The power is fluid, some rules are fluid but my full on submissive mode is only turned at his will.
I first saw her in an SAS show with Mark Davis. Amazing. However, I recently watched 3 episodes of her with her real life master and lover in The Training of O. It was so beautiful to see the mix of emotion and eroticism this brought for her. They had agreed to use the show to work out a service relationship. There was one moment that just showed so clearly what the whole power dynamic means to me. He has just used her hard, forced exercise, whippings, an ass fucking and she is standing at attention. He starts quizzing her.
Are you willing to suck cock anywhere any time?
>Yes sir.
Anyone's cock that I say?
>Yes sir.
Not just mine?
>Yes sir.
Are you willing to let go of me as a lover to be my servant?>(long pause) Yes sir.
Then get down on your knees and present yourself like a servant.
>(obeys, as a few tears trickle down her face)
Why are you crying?
>At the thought of giving you up as a lover sir.
You know you can not be my servant every day in reality?
>Yes sir
You know that becoming a servant is an adjacency to our existing relationship?
>Yes sir
You know you are not losing me as a lover then?
You are gaining something you are not losing anything.
>Yes sir, thank you sir
Are you ok, do you wish to continue?
>Yes sir.
It reminds me of a conversation I had with my master this weekend.
Do you want me to be harder on you slave?
>(pause) Yes master.
Do you want to be treated like nothing, used like a hoar, like my property?
>Sometimes master.
Do you want to be my treasured beautiful slut?
>Sometimes master.
What do you want right now?
>To be nothing master.
And it was true, right then I wanted nothing more then to be on my knees at his feet, to suck his cock, to take his pain and humilarion and bring him pleasure. Afterwards he showered me, held me, kissed me and told me how much he loved me. I love that I can be everything and nothing to the same man. His lover and his slave. I need the separation to truly let go into slave mode. I could see how hard it was for Madison to imagine giving up the side of a lover and could see from his response how much he cared for her too and would never go that far.
My overpowering need for a sense of divide is the reason I do not consider myself 24/7. When I am in slave mode it is so strong and powerful to me that it would be impossible for me to have that on a continuous basis. However, I do not decide when I serve or where I serve. The power is in his hands continuously but I am only expected to access the submissive side at his wish. The collar signifies this for us. Everyone's definitions are different, but that is how it works best for us. The power is fluid, some rules are fluid but my full on submissive mode is only turned at his will.
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Excellent post - thought provoking!
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